I’ve always been the type of girl who has no problem stepping in and being one of the guys. I don’t really embarrass easily, I’m cool with a chill time at a sports bar, and can just kinda roll with things without questioning what it all means. For most of my dating life when I recognized this, I would label myself as a chameleon; I could be whatever the situation called for and as a result, I had a lot of guys to date.
I will admit that I used to think this was a lot of fun; I definitely was never really without company for long and when it wasn’t fun for me anymore, I left. At first, it was a huge ego boost to be able to be the girl who could walk away from these men who were supposed to be desirable catches, but as it kept continuing, it just became tired. I wanted to stop approaching these liaisons and start approaching this as a girl…more emotionally. I started dressing more girly playing up my “assets”; I started to want romance…flowers, candy, the works. I started to think that maybe, just maybe, I’d want to be “a total girl” about relationships and be romanced. Maybe being a girl isn’t so bad when it comes to relationships. If I just balanced my ability to be one of the guys with being a knockout seductress who wants candlelight, flowers, great emotional chemistry, AND bedroom chemistry, I could have the best of both worlds.